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Gifts
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A cool summer evening,
echoes with the song
Of a cuckoo bird.
It fills the soothing breeze,
The scent of mangoes ripe,
Full of their sweet juice,
Ready to tumble on
the ground.
I see a little girl
Slurping on a cone of
Icecream: chocochip flavoured
And a similar memory
Stretches within my heart as
If awakened from a deep slumber.
Pangs of bereavement slice into
My soul, oh! I ache for the
Cozy comfort of my home
And the soothing touch
Of my mother’s hand
Tapping my forehead.
With the setting sun,
I realize how life is like
A tender quilt, stitched
Together with goodbyes.
In the ruin of my dreams,
I wander like a ghost,
Alas it was all ripped off, my
Peace, my love, my faith,
She was the one I wanted to save
Look at the cruel irony
Of life, my world
Was destroyed by her.
Was my heart just a
Cheap toy, meant to be
Played with and then broken?
I craved for her, fought for her,
Longed for her and the moment
Of her sweet consent,
That “yes” was my personal miracle.
Sifting through the sieve of reality,
Those memories burn me,
I curse the moment I
Laid eyes upon her face,
For that very face has become
My worst nightmare as it mocks
My trust, shattering it to
a thousand thousand pieces
And leaving me a torn man
As my heart is slowly twisted
Out of my chest, my world
Crumbles down at my feet
And I stand helpless,
Chained by my grief,
Looking through the blur
Of my tears as my hopes
Go up in the smoke of her betrayal.
Her voice, what used to be the
Music of my life, now
Drifts over and I hear apologies
But her words now tumble
Away like dry leaves in a wind,
I close my eyes and I see
Her, my very life, as she
Slips away into the arms
Of another, her sighs, her passion
Now haunt my mind, tear at
My soul and now I understand
Why they, who keep their hearts
Locked away, do so.
The taste still lingers,
I drank from the oceans
To get a clue of you.
I search and search but
Alas you seem like
The bright shining star,
High up in the skies,
Searing my soul with
All your heat, dazzling
Me with all your light.
But still I cannot, cannot
Feel your texture against
My skin, beneath my fingers.
I swam to the horizon,
Just so I could be a tiny bit
Closer to you and yet I
Longed to touch you,
You just smiled from
Your bed of clouds,
Basking in the company
Of the fair Moon.
I dream of you,
My heart sings for you
And my soul yearns for you
They tell me this ocean, this
Moon and their game
Are all omens,omens to guide
Us to each other, but they never
Tell me, never, how to decipher
The secret language that these
Omens whisper in, for all my
Love for you, has yet to
Turn me into the oracle
That would converse with
The universe and call out
To you in a lover’s voice.
A cold fire rages on and on
yet the heart desires what it must.
Time slips away moment by moment,
still I wait for what may not arrive.
I take a peek, there are bars that
block out chunks of the sky that
I so desperately crave to touch, to conquer.
They who had embedded deep in my soul
the idea of my duty now sing nay, nay.
A war goes on and on, I am
the innocent bystander, the marching
cavalry, the mighty queen and also
the dying soldier. They don’t understand,
my cries fall on deaf ears,
my words wither away,
my tears turn red.
They tell me they are wounded,
it lies beyond my comprehension
how I am to blame.
The God of war after all
thrives on blood, demands it.
My very essence is their creation,
they forget what they sung to me
in lullabies at night,
they don’t remember they made me
repeat to myself with each breath,
that my duty, my only duty
is finally to my heart.
Much hype about the new Cinderella movie. It reminded me of an earlier post. Why do we not look for new stories? Why do we try to retell a stale tale again and again in a new package?
Do you know me? Do you recognise me? Oh, if not then think of Cinderella, then think of her stepsister. Yes I am Cinderella’s stepsister and that is my identity it seems, for you know her and not me. Ironic, isn’t it that you judge me without knowing me or my story, you applaud when the shoe fits my stepsister and you condemn me when I try it on, but you have never even put your foot in my shoes. It is me who is made to try on Cinderella’s shoe, for she is the one they all talk about and fade me into the background as if I am no one, just her stepsister.
She is beauty and she is grace. I am ugly and I am crude. Well, I don’t mind being who I am. I am not ashamed of it, no matter how much you try to…
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